"In order to discover my authentic self,
I had to let go of external expectation and dwell in my uncertainty."
Lauren
A real talk
Medicine always seemed to be the natural course in life for me. I grew up in a comfortable home with a medically oriented family; my mother and aunt were both physicians.
Their influence charted my academic course and career choices, carefully guiding and prodding to stay on the straight and narrow path of expectation carved out for me.
College, medical school, and residency were hurdles to navigate; the almighty dream job was in my lap after finishing residency .
Ten years into a successful private practice, I was
"burned out and disillusioned"
with my life. I had everything I wanted, and yet seemed unable to handle the pressures of an ever demanding professional career and increasingly challenging home life.
Deep down, I knew
it was time for a change.........
What did really want out of life and for myself?
What were my true passions and goals?
These were tough questions I felt I had waited too long to answer. In order to discover my authentic self, I had to let go of external expectation and dwell in my uncertainty.
Get familiar with it, own it, and reevaluate my priorities.
Remember what & when
I remembered I loved to write. I used to write short stories and poetry, drawing from a boundless imagination as a child.
I remembered I wanted to be a mother.
Perhaps that is why I was drawn to obstetrics and gynecology.
From the bowels of self reflection, the blog idea was born. I made the bittersweet decision to leave private practice, and will start an employed position as an ob hospitalist.
This new position will still allow me to practice in my desired field, but leave ample time for other
pursuits.
Self-reflection...
